It’s not often that I think that I’m in synch with the universe. In fact, I often think that it’s diametrically opposed to all that I hold dear. (Okay, not really often…just sometimes.) Which is why I feel like I’m in the land of odd right about now.
Let me start at the beginning.
For those who read this blog, you know that I made the decision to go ahead and quit my jobs, both teaching and as a distance education specialist. The impetus behind it was the lack of stability and anxiety it caused, as well as the urge to do what I really loved. If I’m gonna be poor, I might as well be poor and happy instead of poor and stressed, right?
Apparently, I was reading things very very well, because, as of last week, it appears that one of the schools I was working for is now closing. It is finishing the current cohort through their remaining classes, but it will be done by the end of summer. Their on campus side is in the same boat, only most of their employees were laid off as of last week (getting severance, at least). If I had been there, I would also have been laid off, but as a part-timer, I would have just gone silently into the night.
I have to admit being taken aback by the suddenness of the closing, and part of me is reeling from it still now. We just announced it to our online faculty tonight, and I think they were probably just as surprised as I was when I first heard it. While the school wasn’t doing an amazing job (enrollment numbers – I think we, as a school, did an amazing job), I thought that they would be able to find a way to keep afloat. But it wasn’t meant to be.
Now, while I’m sad and upset, it’s still something that I chose to do. I left on my own terms. I may be in the end game for the next week, but at this point, it’s also the school’s end game, too, and that just feels weird.
I’m definitely glad that I went ahead and made the decision when I did. I have to believe that if I was on the shock and awe side of this closing, I would not be feeling the way I do now.